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Monday, November 13th, 2006
7:21 pm - Better off as the fool, than the owner of that kind of heart

Alright.. that's it. I give. I don't want to be an adult anymore. I forfeit all my responsibilities, all my days of waking up early to go to work, all my bank overdraft fees, and the bills, rent, going every single Sunday for groceries... that's it. I don't want it anymore. I want Looney Tunes, footy pajamas, and a bottle of apple juice. Ooooor, can I have a white russian, a box of money, and a blowjob?

Add to that list, a nice fucking bath tub. It's been cold as hell, and mine's no good for soaks. As if I have that kind of time.

I've just basically been bred to hate this time of year. I guess I just don't quite understand the "buy everyone I know something" mind set. I'm all about family, and friends, and togetherness, and nice times, but I don't understand why in order for you to have that, everyone had to receive an insane amount of gifts, that you probably wouldn't love all that much in a few weeks anyway.

I promise I'm way more fun-loving and sunshiny in person, ask this one dude, he'll vouch for me.

I've just been in a bad mood for... um, like 3 months. I just don't understand what I have done, or who I've pissed off, that they've decided to take such a gigantic shit on me and on my life. Things have just been... really hard to get through... I can't imagine how I would have gotten through certain things in recent months without going bat shit crazy, if it weren't for a certain someone... they know who they are. But believe me, there would have been far more crazy babble on here if I hadn't that kind of warmth then and now.

I shouldn't be so cynical about things though. I have a lot of good in my life too. A lot of good that I'm sure most people don't have. But like I said, things have just been taxing. Every little step ahead I get, I go falling back a little farther, and I can't even get level with where I was. I just keep sinking further and further... ahhhhhhhhhh.

But, I haven't forgotten to stop and look at how many of the little things I have and love. Like, sex, drugs, and rock and roll.

And I'm out.

current mood: exhausted

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Tuesday, December 20th, 2005
2:07 pm - That's fucking right!

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current mood: awake

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Wednesday, December 14th, 2005

Step 1: Get your music player ready, put it on random, and play.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 20 songs that play.
Step 3: Let everyone guess what song (and artist!) the lines come from.
Step 4: Cross out the songs when someone guesses correctly.

1. Baby, it’s really growin’, you made me happy when the skies were grey, But now I’ve got to go away
2. Close up the bar you know the gates of the brewery, She’s out there every night, And she sure ain’t drinkin’ tea
3. I felt so good, like anything was possible, I hit cruise control and rubbed eyes
4. Like battery thinkers, Count your thoughts on one two three four five fingers
5. The breath on that fat bastard could bring any man to tears, We had our words, a common spat, So I kissed him upside the cranium with an aluminum baseball bat
6. A woman here a woman there try to keep me in a plastic cage, But they don’t realise it’s so easy to break
7. Boys come along a dime by the dozen, That ain’t nothing but ten cent lovin’, Hey little thing let me light your candle, ’cause mama I’m sure hard to handle, now
8. On a weekend I wanna wish it all away yeah... And they called and I said that I want what I said, And then I call out again
9. And every one of them words rang true , And glowed like burning coal, Pouring off of every page, Like it was written in my soul from me to you
10. Life’s the same except for my shoes, Life’s the same you’re shakin’ like tremolo, Life’s the same it’s all inside you
11. A girl grinning at me, she's doing the shimmy
12. I don’t know how to read but I’ve got a lot of toys, My daddy’s a lazy middle class intellectual, My mommy’s on valium, so ineffectual
13. So don’t forget what I told you, don’t come around, I got my own hell to raise.
14. Toll due bad dream come true, I lie dead gone under red sky
15. She’s got electric boots a mohair suit, You know I read it in a magazine
16. So this is Christmas, And what have you done, Another year over, And a new one just begun
17. Well, it's just a simple fact. When I want something, I don't want to pay for it.
18. Thirteen month old baby, broke the lookin' glass, Seven years of bad luck, the good things in your past
19. I'm on a roll, I'm on a roll this time, I feel my luck could change.
20. We’ll float around, And hang out on clouds,Then we’ll come down, And have a hangover

current mood: refreshed

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Tuesday, November 22nd, 2005
7:39 pm - Full of time, and none at all

Finally home, and ready for two days off. Work isn't a hard job, there's a lot I'm still learning, and I'm on my feet for six hours everyday, which I know sounds kind of weakling like, but I haven't had a job we're I've had to stand up in quite sometime, and I'm still getting used to it. So I came home, ate some goodies, and intend to spend tomorrow, sleeping in as late as possible, cleaning, and getting all my college stuff completed.

I've been sleeping terrible lately. Even though I'm exhausted when I get home, and even get into bed early, I still find myself sleeping no more than 45 minutes, and waking up for another 30, until I can fall asleep for a little under an hour and start again. My dreams have been so insanely vivid, and weird.

I found out today that there's an area in the store that the employees get to put out their favorite things on display. DVDs, CDs, Games, etc. Oh man it's exciting trying to think of what I want to put in my bin. It's hard to choose though. I do like my job though. It's crazy when you do a shipment of things, and have to organize them... I'm just constantly going through, and finding things that I'd love to have. Which makes that discount sound wonderful. I need to be careful though, I don't make that much money.

Strange having such a connection with someone, and not even knowing their name.

Things have been things, and more.

current mood: content

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Wednesday, October 5th, 2005
2:05 pm - I'm not gonna lie, I want you for mine

So... I was supposed to be at work an hour and five minutes ago... and where am I? Sitting behind my computer grooving around to Sublime. I can't say that I'd rather be at work, but it does slightly piss me off that I'm missing pay because no one could tell me I didn't have a ride.


I've officially decided that White Castle is evil... I can't even begin to explain how many times I've been to that place in the past two weeks. It's not natural, I tell you, to go every single night, and STILL enjoy it. And Kristen, you've now gotten me hooked on the chicken sandwich...

Now... I was responsible today and called in to let them know that I'd be late, and two different people still have managed to call me and ask if I'm going to be there. Both of whom I've never heard of, let alone met.

Ahhh! I'm so bored!

So I had more, but yeah. But, I'm well.

current mood: bouncy

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Wednesday, August 31st, 2005
3:47 am - I've said what I said and you know what I mean, but I can't still focus on anything

Well guys and gals, figured I'd better dust this thing off and spill out a few random, pointless thoughts that have been swarming my pretty little head.

Lets seeeeeeeee...

Still employeed... going strong for 4 months now...aaaaaaand as of September 31st I will have health and dental coverage. Jesus Christ, that is a wonderful thing.

Um... I skipped work last Wednesday (on a beautiful day might I add) and went with my brother to my Dad's grave. I haven't been there in well over a year, I think mostly because it makes it entirely too real. But it was actually a pretty neat experience. Smoked a joint, laughed about all the good memories, and my brother looked at me and said, "Ashleigh, out of all the times I've been here, this is the only time it's felt right, I love you." Now, if you don't think that's the sweetest thing ever, you can just go to hell.

I've been reading To Kill a Mockingbird, MY VERY OWN COPY, purchased by one very, handsome, young man. I've forgotten how much I love this book. I'd give anything to stay curled up in my bed, listening to the rain, reading this book, then having to go to work tomorrow... que sera, sera.

So folks, how's life for you... tell me I say, tell me!

current mood: happy

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Tuesday, July 5th, 2005
8:43 am - M'kay
Take my Quiz on QuizYourFriends.com!

current mood: cranky

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Monday, June 27th, 2005
7:02 pm - ’Cause I’m the most boring sons-a-bitch you’ve ever seen

I have the house to my myself for a hour. Ahh... Time to turn my music up loud and sing along badly.

So far this weekend (my weekends consist of Sunday-Tuesday) has been a most relaxing one. If I haven't been sleeping or watching nonesense on tv, I was getting my ass kicked at Texas Hold'em, by a very cute brown eyed boy.

My ear is still stopped up, but things have been good. I'm a happy girl.

At the risk of me posting song lyrics that mean nothing to you readers I'm going to end this.

current mood: happy

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Friday, June 10th, 2005
1:25 am - hehe...
What does your t-shirt say? by rejektedrockstar
Fav. Color
Quiz created with MemeGen!

current mood: tired

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Saturday, June 4th, 2005
2:30 am - With your feet in the air and your head on the ground

Since everyone has been posting pictures lately, I figured I'd post some as well. My Nana sent me these earlier, and I wanted to show them off somewhere, so... here ya go.


Pictures....... ooooooo ahhhhhhCollapse )

current mood: relaxed

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Friday, May 27th, 2005
12:07 am - Happy Birthday Jennifer!

Jennifer is...

Because it's her birthday!

I'd kick that kids ass so I could get you some balloons, cause I know how much you love a bunch of balloons on a broom stick, but until then I hope you have an awesome birthday!


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Monday, May 16th, 2005
3:58 am - Meet me in the bathroom
Fuck, I had a great weekend.

current mood: happy

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Sunday, May 15th, 2005
2:01 am - She's got your... your pistol

Whew... sniffles.

I keep smelling something cooking... yum. I just wish there was really something cooking.


What's that birdy doing? ;)

Kristen was here to surprise me today... I AMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehe

Jeremy is coming down the 30th! I get to see my baby boy! 

That Spencerian College commercial with all the "Get There!" things flashing, freaks me out...

They're putting me through another entire week of training. Another week of drowning in notes... AHHHHHHHH... I'd rather talk to bitchy Nextel customers. That sore place on my right ring finger from writing too much is back... I've been rid of that thing for almost a year. Damn them.

Chevy Chase just fell off a ladder... ouch.

Bleep... over.

current mood: cold

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Friday, May 6th, 2005
5:53 am - To be reaaaaaaaaaaaal

My cousin Seans wife Leigh had her baby on Cinco de Mayo. 05-05-05... how nifty. They named him Sean Stone Davis. I get to go see him tomorrow!

You know you want to say it... awwwwwww.

Work is going nice... and I'm meeting cool new people from and not from work. Though I feel like I'm back in school again, all I do is take notes, and take tests. Nextel phones are a very uninteresting topic.

Tonight was fun as hell. I felt/feel goooooood.

I'm going to get some Dairy Queen now.

current mood: hungry

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Saturday, April 30th, 2005
1:25 am - Take me to the edge again

I am employed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I applied today at ACS (for FOUR HOURS!) and they hired me on the spot, and asked me to start Monday! I'll work Monday through Friday from 4pm-midnight, for three weeks of training, and this it switches to 4 tens a week. I also start out at 8 dollars an hour, and after training I can make up to 9.70. =D And after 90 days I can get health insurance! Woo!

The past week has been so spectacular. It has been nothing but good times... some of it stressful and instense yes, but wonderful nonetheless.


After my interview I went and bought food to make dinner. Grilled chicken, mashed potatoes, and macaroni and cheese. MMMMM Tasty.


Yum Collapse )

current mood: bouncy, happy

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Wednesday, April 13th, 2005
5:59 pm - Bitches love me cause they know that i can rock
This was interesting...Collapse )

current mood: giddy, excited

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Saturday, April 9th, 2005
6:21 pm - Don't you just know it...

I don't really have much to say, I just felt an update was needed... or maybe I'm just exceptionally bored.

Things have been very nice since I've moved, it's been absolutely wonderful, not waking up and seeing people I hate pass my window. I don't even know the people who pass my window. =D

Wait... Wait... WAIT! Argh. I'm impatient. I hope it's worth it.  I'm excited nonetheless.

I'm in a dancy mood. My DSL finally works, so I need some good songs to download. Suggestions greatly appreciated. I mean it!  

 It's good to know I'm in your thoughts, as much as you are in mine...


current mood: bouncy, happy

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Tuesday, March 22nd, 2005
2:45 pm - Get ready...

We got our apartment in Lexington, so tomorrow we'll be starting to move all the junk I've been packing up for the past week.

All you bitches better come see me before I leave! Especially you Ms. Kristen Downing.

Possibly my last night in Paris... WOO FUCKING HOO

current mood: satisfied

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Tuesday, March 15th, 2005
3:38 pm - Drag it slow, Drag it hard

This past weekend has somewhat helped the pessimistic mood I've recently not been able to shake. Saturday was the first time I've been able to hang out with just Kristen in quite a long time. Around 8 or so, Todd Price showed up at my door. I think the both of us were just sick and tired of being couped up in Paris. Our original plan was to find as many people who would be willing to go, and go and dance at a bar/club. After a few calls, and stops at peoples houses, it was apparent we'd be making the trip with just the two of us. After arriving in Richmond, and heading down town we passed Tat 101, and Todd said that Roach would most likely be there. Sure enough he was, and we ended up spending the rest of the weekend with him, and his good friend Dino (the owner of Tat 101, who then ended up giving Todd his first tattoo.) It was nice to be out of the house (and Paris for that matter) for that long, and meeting and hanging out with cool new people was also a plus.    

Earlier I was looking through a pile of mixed CDs in my room, trying to figure out what songs were on them, and I ran across this CD. I stuck it in, and realized immediately that it was horrible music, but of course being the curious person I am, I looked up some of the lyrics of the first song, and found out it was... A YELLOWCARD CD. *gags* So, if this is anyones CD, or if anyone would like this CD, you are more than welcome to it. I would have just thrown it away, but if it is someone elses, that'd be a pretty shitty thing to do. I'd be pissed if someone threw out one of my Nirvana CDs if I left it at their house, just because they didn't like them.

I had more to say... but...

current mood: cheerful

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Thursday, March 3rd, 2005
6:08 pm - Only it will make me happy

I've become a picture whore lately, and I had to share few shots from my birthday. =D Even with it's bumps in the road, it turned out to not be that bad of a birthday. The crappy part was missing a lot of people that I really wished could have been there, because sitting at home watching tv until late in the night with Adam passed out on my shoulder, my brother asleep by 8:30, and my mom gone at her boyfriends, and having James make you drive in the snow across town to give him a ride because his car ran out of gas, and him not being there, isn't the most fun a girl could have. I did atleast get an awesome cake, a tiara, and had a little get together of people to throw me a nice party. I can't say it was a bad day. AND I'll get to see Kristen, Mandy, and Jeremy this weekend. Hopefully! *crosses fingers*

Well, here's some pictures of... you guessed it ME!!!Collapse )

current mood: determined

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